She is not looking forward to this. There is no reason to think that alerting Sherlock to her search will do anything other than permanently cut off any other avenues she might have tried. Then she'll never know the answer, and she hates that.
But. It is a question of ethics. She's known that from the beginning, which is why her need for knowledge isn't the only reason why she doesn't want to ask him about it. She's also worried about how he'll react, because she likes him and wants him to like (to keep liking) her, and she wouldn't care about that if she didn't know perfectly well that he will have a very valid reason to be upset with her.
Which is probably the best reason of all to tell him before she finds herself caught in some ridiculous soap opera-esque feedback loop of lies. It was, when she started out, the best way to improve her odds of getting what she wanted, but those odds are rapidly dwindling, and Bella will not let herself be someone who refuses to adapt when a situation changes.
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She is not looking forward to this. There is no reason to think that alerting Sherlock to her search will do anything other than permanently cut off any other avenues she might have tried. Then she'll never know the answer, and she hates that.
But. It is a question of ethics. She's known that from the beginning, which is why her need for knowledge isn't the only reason why she doesn't want to ask him about it. She's also worried about how he'll react, because she likes him and wants him to like (to keep liking) her, and she wouldn't care about that if she didn't know perfectly well that he will have a very valid reason to be upset with her.
Which is probably the best reason of all to tell him before she finds herself caught in some ridiculous soap opera-esque feedback loop of lies. It was, when she started out, the best way to improve her odds of getting what she wanted, but those odds are rapidly dwindling, and Bella will not let herself be someone who refuses to adapt when a situation changes.